I did not find the answer that night but was very surprised by my questions. Who am I and what is my myself with you I can not live?. But that question was used to start the journey within myself. It was something I did not understand at the time but which served to de-identify «my unhappy self» – and later began to call it – of my myself. This de-identification between my inner-self that I am recognized as Consciousness after-conditioned and my body. From my consciousness conditioned, which provided me with a sense of identity filled with unhappy things. I immediately was drawn to certain types of photovoltaic energy, like I was disappearing into it. And he still had some strength, I heard something like an inner voice saying to me: «Do not oppose anything». So I gave him rather opposed any resistance to that feeling of disappearing in the middle of nowhere. I do not remember anything else that night. What I know is that on waking the next morning, I opened my eyes, I saw everything in the room and everything there, it seemed as if seeing it for the first time, fresh, new, alive. The light from the windows and the familiar objects on the table. Everything tasted fresh, new and alive. Everything looked so peaceful, traffic, the city. And I realized that something strange had happened because everything was full of liveliness and peace. And I do not know why. And so it went. That peace intrinsic was the backdrop to all experiences, all my sensory perceptions and even all my thoughts. And never left me since. But it took me a while to understand and be able to put into words.